by Amy Nobles Dolan
First published on Yoga with Spirit
“This life is a gift.” – an inspirational thought from my tea bag.
Dealing with Grumpiness
I first found my way onto a yoga mat during a very discontented time. In an odd way, I felt like I was trapped in someone else’s life and had no idea how to get back to my own. I felt lost. I felt unhappy. I felt grouchy. While I think I would have told you that I believed life was a gift, I decidedly did not feel that MY life was a gift.
It took a surprising amount of time for me to realize that I wasn’t happy. In fact, what I first recognized was my omnipresent grumpiness. I was losing my temper regularly and I hated it. I felt like I was going to bed most nights disappointed with myself (again) for raising my voice at someone. It seemed like I made the same promise to myself each morning: I will not lose my temper today. In fact, it was starting to seem like a mantra that simply wasn’t working.
Perhaps it was the chronic haze of exhaustion caused by being a stay-at-home mom of three, one of whom simply did not ever sleep, but it took an eternity for me to understand that my grouchiness was a symptom of a greater problem: I wasn’t happy.